So this cycle I started gonal-f, which is an injectable med. I will follow with a trigger injectable called Novarel. With that being said, all prediction kits and pregnancy tests will be false positives. This means I will not be testing at all this cycle! I'm challenging myself to not pee on a stick until I'm late, or the day of! This is going to be very difficult for me because I'm such a control freak! I'm just going to go with the flow of this cycle. I'll have enough u/s and blood work I'm sure to keep me busy. And to be honest, my give a damn is busted. I've spent the last few days around prego friends and family and I'm wanting to know when its going to be my turn. A lot of girls on my soulcysters forum found out they are pregnant this week. Very exciting and gives me a little hope.
Tomorrow I'm going for an u/s to see whats going on in there!
Today, I celebrate Easter and thank Jesus for his sacrifice so that I can be saved. He has risen!
Sooo..... Yesterday was 8dpiui for me and until then I was feeling really good. In the afternoon I started having a very small amount of brownish CM. At first I thought this was a good thing. Possibly implantation bleeding?? The timing was perfect for that. So I went on my merry way throughout the day and had really good thoughts in my head about testing later this week. I had good conversation with my girlfriend jen that 6 months prego. She gave me her left over tests and we laughed about the whole iui experience.
Then I woke up this morning. I had more of what I call "spotting". Needless to say I was freakin out. The nurse that I am made the judgement call that its more than just implantation bleeding. How could I be starting my period only 9 days after ovulation??? What the hell!?!? I was completely discouraged and told ryan what was going on. In the midst of telling him, my prego sister in law shows up at the house unexpectantly. I revert to my cave, aka my king size bed and bawl. How I fell back asleep considering I got like 8 hours of sleep is beyond me. I woke up and called my friend who is a doctor that I work with and also went through IF. She has been my go to girl through all this and has been so good to me with advice both medically and as a friend. I am just crazy about her! She said its nothing to worry about if its no more than a trickle. She actually thought is was a good thing. She girlfriend who spotted the first trimester and had a healthy baby. She did make me feel a lot better.
As the day has gone on I'm thinking its more a period rather than implantation bleeding. I've been having menstral like cramps and generally irritated. My nips still hurt something misserable. I swear they're going to fall off!
So I'm very disheartened today and about the entire cycle. But I'm more concerned as to why I've started my period so early. I've never started a perion on my own. I've always needed provera to induce one. The whole thing is just weird. I'm gonna call my doctor in the morning and see what they have to say.
In the meantime, tomorrow is opening day of turkey season. Hopefully, I can lay a big bird down and relieve a litle stress. I also took a couple days of pto to enjoy the week. So we've been driving around on the 4wheeler on our friends farm along the missouri river and putting the turkeys to sleep.
C'mon missouri thunder chicken!!!! And cd1...... :(
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So the dreaded two week wait is just now starting for me. Ugh! Im going to try to keep myself busy with lots of stuff to do. We're in the middle of remodeling our basement. So today I went around and touched up some paint spots and rearranged the furniture. I'm going to the party store later with the bestie to pick out stuff for her baby shower! I'm excited! Then we're bbqing at my in laws. The weather is so nice! I'm gonna enjoy now while I can. I gotta work tomorrow... Boo!
I love that I can blog from my droid! That's my excuse for any typos! Tehehe!
So I have two little west highland terriers named Derby and Dozer. I love them like crazy! The last week however not so much. a few days ago we found little smelly presents that one of them left for us. So, I set up one of my husbands trail cameras uop to hopefully catch one in the act. Busted! Dozer is the bad doggy!
Sooo.... Ryan and I got up early this morning and went to the doctor's office for our first IUI. It's definitely not how I imagined we would conceive a child, but since I can't do it alone, it will have to do. The actual process was really not that big of a deal. I held the "specimen cup" in my bra to keep warm. They took it from me and "washed" it. Then she put a drop on a slide and let us see it under the microscope. SO COOL!!! Seeing all the little swimmers going CRAZY was amazing! Needless to say Ryan was so proud and a little boastful! hehe. Doc said they were like Michael Phelps! (So weird!) It was really just like a normal PAP. It wasn't painful and I laid there for 15 minutes afterwards. We both had a feeling of "That was it?!?" Insurance won't pay for that??? Around $400 a pop is still pricey but not as bad as I thought.
The last few nights have been MISIRABLE! The clomid makes me have crazy hot flashes. People think I'm kidding when I say that our thermostat was set at 60 degrees all winter. I would set it lower but Ryan wouldn't let me! It's like I wake up and feel like I'm on fire. Then I can't fall back asleep.
I also haven't been feeling well. I'm not sure if I'm getting sick, allergies or it was just nerves.
But here's a great series I just watched called The Great Sperm Race. Pretty cool! It's a series of 6 clips on YouTube.
So us went really good today! My follie measured 2.04 cm! Which means its ready for ovulation. I'll do my trigger this afternoon and iui is scheduled for friday am.
In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy myself st the StL Cards game!
